[	Current Mood	|	gloomy	]
[	Current Music	|	Seventeen Forever - Metro Station	]

For the longest time, I haven't wrote a single thing on this space. I didn't see any point in writing anything for this period of time (like always) since my life is on a recurring & monotonous mode.

Lately, everything that I've been doing seems to be scheduled out for me. It's as if it was marked on my calender that on Wednesdays, Fridays & Saturdays were days to be out till the morning, or at the very least staying out just for the sake of it. Days like that were the days that just depletes whatever that's left in my bank. Financially ? Not doing so well.

Nothing out of the ordinary has happened, or at least I don't think it has since my life was the way I left it when the holidays began. No life changing experience. Put my life 2 months ago against my current life now. Don't see a difference. Except that I put on some weight, which I would not like to complain about and continue living in my own bubble of self-denial.

School's starting and that's practically the main reason why I'm even here. The holidays were fun while it lasted but I'm not excactly dreading school. At least then, I'd have something to do that was actually meant to be scheduled out. 
Thing is, I kind of regret how I trashed 2 months of my life away. Sometimes doing random stuff wouldn't really hurt and might actually benefit more than what's expected.
Then there's this whole love issue. I was just listening to Love Story by Taylor Swift. It's a pretty nice song, good melody, pretty young celebrity with a pretty young blonde face.
First you think, blonde pretty face + love songs.
It practically spells cheesy.
Yes, I agree cheesy. No, I don't hate it.
Although no one has excactly pointed out to me yet that this song is way too typical, I can't help but feel my own irony.
The lyrics consisted of like "Romeo", "Juliet", "I love you" & other bullshit like "Take me somewhere so we can be alone".
Simple & stupid cheesy words.
But isn't that how love should be? Simple, stupid and cheesy.
Haha, okay just trying to prove a point to myself.

All along, I've wanted so much. Yet now, I'd really simply give my life away to have a simple life with you. But I don't think that it'll ever happened. But I guess I'll start by living my life in simplicity.

I'll be back, hopefully.


 

[	Current Mood	|	crushed	]
[	Current Music	|	With Arms Wide Open - Creed	]

What does it feel like, to feel something so wrong but yet so right.
How does it feel like, to feel something so forbidden.
How does it feel like, to go through the same thing over again?

It feels, like.
This.

[	Current Mood	|	down	]
[	Current Music	|	Last Christmas - WHAM!	]

Fine, I'm slightly depressed.